yesterday afternoon a friend messaged, wanted to know whether i could pick them up from the hospital today. ofc i said yes, so i cancelled plans i had with someone else (and lets be real, it was probably 50/50 whether we would actually get together or not) and went to sleep at a reasonable hour and woke up at a reasonable hour and left the house and basically THOUGHT ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE FOR AWHILE.

and you know what? it was such a relief. and also she's a fun person, and post-anesthesia she's extra fun, and we made it out of the hopsital and got the rx and went back to hers, and then i went out and got her the burrito she had been talking about since last night, and then we played around with music stuff. and now i'm home.

its a lot easier to be motivated and positive and just AWAKE when other people are around. left to my own devices i am mostly just sad and sleepy. how do i wake up???

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